packetfu.org » Personal http://packetfu.org Thu, 22 Mar 2012 22:43:36 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 My life 2012 http://packetfu.org/2012/01/my-life-2012.html http://packetfu.org/2012/01/my-life-2012.html#comments Tue, 10 Jan 2012 16:55:22 +0000 creining http://packetfu.org/?p=1293 In my post a year ago My Life 2010 to 2011 I wrote how I did not want to have any goals for 2011, I simply wanted to be. In retrospect I think I need both goals and the ability/cognizance to be. I had a great 2011, filled with change for the better, a found myself upon a new and brightly lit path – finally the right path – with a deep commitment to self improvement. At this point I have never been happier! I want to jot down a few things I want to do this year and I have every intention to do them:

1. Renew my GCFW and renew my GCIA certificates
2. Go camping in Wisconsin, either Sidie Hollow County Park or Wyalusing or both!
3. Complete my Biannual Flight Review
4. Visit Austin, TX
5. Travel to Argentina, specifically Buenos Aires, and possibly Chile too
6. And I really want to stay at the Elysian in Chicago, it is so dope

]]> http://packetfu.org/2012/01/my-life-2012.html/feed 0 My life 2010 to 2011 http://packetfu.org/2011/01/my-life-2010-to-2011.html http://packetfu.org/2011/01/my-life-2010-to-2011.html#comments Sun, 02 Jan 2011 02:31:11 +0000 creining http://packetfu.org/?p=1159 In my post My life from 2009 to 2010 a year ago I wrote about how I had the tendency to set too many ambitious goals therefore I set less and didn’t have expectations. Here’s what they were:

  • Camp at Sidie Hollow County Park nope, no camping but the following was close!
  • Trip to Alaska, Anchorage to Denali yes! a wildlife bonanaza
  • Travel to Argentina no, Paris instead!
  • Fly fly fly (a trip to Washington Island is in order) unfortunately, no
  • Learn about investment real estate yes, REITs or MLPs are what I would pursue

Besides those things I also traveled to Cleveland, Los Angeles, Washington D.C. and the Turks and Caicos. It was a busy year. I think over the course of year 2010 I lived in the present more and I am happy about that change. It is really exhausting to always be looking ahead rather than just being. My old self did that. I have become a lot more relaxed and happy by making a conscious change to not obsess over what needs to be done tomorrow or next week or next month. I am, like anybody, going to spend time on those things I enjoy doing but I don’t plan them as much. I will go camping, flying, I will travel abroad; I will pursue whatever my passions are. However, I am only making one goal this year and I want to truly honor it throughout the year. I think if I do this everything will fall into place. That goal is (drum roll please):

  • Start each and every day with surrender

If I truly remember and honor it throughout the year then everything should fall into place. Now I can’t just say I’m going to stick to it and that’s that. I’m going to do a simple morning meditation focused on my willingness to surrender and asking a higher power for the strength to follow that through. During this meditation I will envision a river that I call my life rushing past me and I make a conscious decision to stop swimming upstream, turning to face wherever it takes me and letting go of the foothold that keeps me stuck in frustration. I lift my feet and float freely with the current, instead of swimming and struggling against it; allowing the current of something greater than myself to carry me where it will.

]]> http://packetfu.org/2011/01/my-life-2010-to-2011.html/feed 0 Joseph Campbell http://packetfu.org/2010/05/joseph-campbell.html http://packetfu.org/2010/05/joseph-campbell.html#comments Sun, 02 May 2010 15:36:25 +0000 creining http://packetfu.org/?p=1021 If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Wherever you are—if you are following your bliss, you are enjoying that refreshment, that life within you, all the time. ~ Joseph Campbell

I recently borrowed Joseph Campbell and the Power of Myth from the library. It is an excellent six part television documentary that was originally broadcast on PBS in 1988. I wanted to discover, challenge, think about, recreate my belief system.

The first thing that I would say about the program is that there is so much depth to the dialogue he has with Bill Moyer. Topics and thoughts that had my head spinning, my mind racing. I felt that when Campbell stated some of his more challenging or difficult viewpoints I would convince myself that I understood. But, I’m also of the viewpoint that if I think I understand something, that I get it, than I probably don’t. It was an enlightening experience and a great catalyst for thinking about belief systems.

I am going to write about a few of the topics that really resonated with me. The first was when he was talking about the source of life. Well what is it? No one knows. And he thinks that it is important to live life with a knowledge of it’s mystery and your own mystery. He mentioned that a lot of people in therapy, when they find out what it is ticking in them they get straightened out. They become more balanced and live with less anxiety.

Second, he talks a bit about dragons in mythology. When Moyer tries to relate that to a persons life Campbell states that the real dragon is in you, it is your ego. Your ego is what you want, what you believe, what you can do, what you think you love and all that. The aim of your life. The issue is that it might be too small, it pins you down. If it is simply that which what your environment tells you what to do than it certainly is pinning you down and your environment is then your dragon. Moyer then asks how do you slay that dragon in yourself, what is the journey you have to make. The general formula? Follow your bliss. If you are doing what you want to do because you choose to do it and you are happy to do it that’s fine, do what you want then. There is no dragon to slay. But, if you think I couldn’t do this or I couldn’t do that than you are not following your bliss. I think that is simple enough to follow; that is what is so beautiful about it.

Third was about nirvana. Nirvana is a psychological state of mind, it is here in the middle of turmoil. It’s the condition that comes when you’re not compelled by desire or by fear or by social commitments. Where you hold your center and act out of there. No one can tell you how to do that, it can’t be taught. This is something that I would like to explore more. Do I have to become Buddhist to achieve nirvana or can anyone achieve it? I think anyone could strive for it and the ideals outside of the formal path that Buddhists take.

Fourth, was about the whole planet as an organism. The idea that I came out of the earth. I am the earth. I am the consciousness of the earth. My eyes are the eyes of the earth and my voice is the voice of the earth. I love this way of thinking, it makes me feel a lot more connected to the world and everything in it. I never believed in a god or a personal god, I always thought that the earth was my god as it gives me life by the sun, the water, the air and the food it provides. I also have always believed that I am just a consciousness and that my body is a medium for that. Eventually my body will have served its purpose and my consciousness will be free to inhabit another transport.

Fifth, Campbell said that it’s important to have a sacred place. Whether it’s a place or an hour in the day where you don’t know about any news, or people or tasks or what you owe people. It’s a time to bring forth what you are and what you might be. Creative incubation. At first nothing might happen there. If you have a sacred place and use it and take advantage of it something will happen. Most of our action is economically or socially determined, it does not come out of our life. What is it I’m intended to do? I’m always doing something required of me. Where is my bliss station?

Lastly, God. He who thinks he knows doesn’t know. He who knows that he doesn’t know knows.

A great story Campbell told about a priest he met at a gym. The priest sat down next to him and it went like this:

priest: are you a priest?
Campbell: no.
priest: are you a catholic?
Campbell: i was, father.
priest: do you believe in a personal god?
Campbell: no, father.
priest: Well, I suppose there is no way to prove by logic the existence of a personal god.
Campbell: if there were father, what would be the value of faith?
priest: nice to meet you.

And the priest hurriedly walks off.

]]> http://packetfu.org/2010/05/joseph-campbell.html/feed 0 My life 2009 to 2010 http://packetfu.org/2010/01/my-life-2009-to-2010.html http://packetfu.org/2010/01/my-life-2009-to-2010.html#comments Sat, 02 Jan 2010 01:40:00 +0000 creining http://packetfu.org/2010/01/my-life-2009-to-2010.html In my post a year ago, My life 08 into 09, I had a list of 7 things I wanted to accomplish. Well, I didn’t get them all done but that’s not a bad thing at all. I accomplished all my goals in 2008 which I felt really good about but it also caused me to become burned out and to miss living in the present. I learned a lot between about living my life during 2009. Here’s what I mean.

I have a tendency to always look ahead to tomorrow or the next month or even years ahead. I don’t think that it’s necessarily bad to look ahead and have personal or professional goals I want to accomplish or places I want to visit. However, I do that too much and it begins to dominate me. I remember when I was a little kid I couldn’t wait to be older so I could do more things. Get a job, drive a car, stay out until curfew, move out of the house, go to college, get a real job, buy a house.

Just a few years ago I would lie awake and think about all the things that I had to get done at work the next day. Or what I needed to do to plan a trip that was a year away. And on and on. I’ve found that there is very little I can do about anything in the middle of the night, except sleep.

I would start to think that I only have this one life and yet there is so much that I would like to do. So that lead me to try to orchestrate my future and the outcome is that I start to miss out on what is happening now. I start missing the journey because I’m wasting so much energy planning the future.

So I’m working on learning to live in the present, in the moment. Being aware of the journey and forgetting about the destination. I don’t want to sacrifice the present for the future because I won’t feel any accomplishment until I reach that goal. Wash, rinse and repeat. I don’t want to live that way.

This doesn’t mean that I have to give up all future plans. Living in the moment doesn’t mean to throw out all responsibility or become cavalier about everything. I have bills to pay, groceries to get, a house to clean, family to visit, deadlines for work. I just don’t choose to obsess over my future. I like to strive for a balanced awareness of my past, present and future with the present being my fulcrum on life’s see saw.

I like the way my life is now. I have more freedom to do what I want, when I want to and with whom. So now I would definitely say I’m living for happiness and satisfaction today. I know that I’m not going to be happy every day, but satisfaction with life covers a lot of ground.

After having said all that, my goals for 2009 were:

  • Find and purchase 5-10 vacant wooded acres in Wisconsin (I didn’t do this; I still want to and this is going into my 10 year plan)
  • Camp at Dells of Eau Claire, Nelson Dewey and Point Beach state parks (did it, loved it!)
  • Vacation on Holbox Island, Mexico (we did this over my 30th birthday, a hidden gem!)
  • Travel to India (I spent 16 days in Southern India, a wonderful adventure!)
  • Fly fly fly (a trip to Washington Island is in order) (not this year)
  • Design and start a half-sleeve (I have ideas of what I want but this is something I am not going to rush)
  • Road trip! Wyoming (Yellowstone), Washington, Oregon, Arizona (Grand Canyon), Colorado (not this year, I didn’t even have enough vacation to attempt this!)

And I am making some 2010 goals. They are not too aggressive as they have been in the past and I’m not going to obsess over them or be upset if I don’t accomplish them.

  • Camp at Sidie Hollow County Park
  • Trip to Alaska, Anchorage to Denali
  • Travel to Argentina
  • Fly fly fly (a trip to Washington Island is in order)
  • Learn about investment real estate
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Madison Area Technical College (MATC) Small Business Entrepreneurship Program

Wisconsin Entrepreneurs’ Network (WEN)

Wisconsin Small Business Development Center (SBDC)

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Some of the ones that I’ve seen that are generally what I like:
sugar skull
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sugar skull
sugar skull

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2008:

  • Visit Miami (had a great time visiting with Korre)
  • Buy a BMW (got fed up with Zimbrick BMW, bought from International Autos)
  • Renew my GCFW and GCIA certifications (my good-for-4-year SANS certs)
  • Get promoted to the Senior position (I also celebrated my 5 year anniversary at work)
  • Hike the Inca Trail to Machu Picchu in Peru (amazing, amazing, amazing)
  • Finish my Private Pilot’s License (after close to two years, I can finally say I’m a pilot)
  • Find a great woman to date (hi)
  • Visit Amsterdam (traveled solo for the first time, which I recommend for everyone)
  • Visit San Francisco (was work related but got to do some exploring)

2009:

  • Find and purchase 5-10 vacant wooded acres in Wisconsin
  • Camp at Dells of Eau Claire, Nelson Dewey and Point Beach state parks
  • Vacation on Holbox Island, Mexico
  • Travel to India
  • Fly fly fly (a trip to Washington Island is in order)
  • Design and start a half-sleeve
  • Road trip! Wyoming (Yellowstone), Washington, Oregon, Arizona (Grand Canyon), Colorado
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]]> http://packetfu.org/2008/02/yurting.html/feed 0 Think for yourself http://packetfu.org/2007/09/think-for-yourself.html http://packetfu.org/2007/09/think-for-yourself.html#comments Mon, 10 Sep 2007 18:36:00 +0000 creining http://packetfu.org/2007/09/think-for-yourself.html Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness; chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself.

Timothy Leary

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